If I were independently wealthy...

... I would have a full VERT membership, a full TaeBo membership, and a full Corepower Yoga membership, and I'd bop around from one fabulous gym to the next. I always feel SO fabulous when I am at these places working out, I'm so centered and focused, and then I feel great when I leave. It's so invigorating and amazing. It's painful and it hurts, but it's just good stuff. I wish I could afford to keep them all up! However, the decision is going to have to be made here in April... to whom do I pay the big bucks? I'm thinking I'll pay for the TaeBo, and then maybe get my teaching certification and hope that she'll give me a free membership as my pay. THAT would be wonderful. Then I could afford the occasional drop-in yoga class or VERT session.

What brings this on, you may ask? Well, this weekend I felt gross... so frumpy, ew... and then sure enough, Monday I "weighed-in" at a number I haven't seen in like 2 years. Not SO horrible, but not what I want to see. So Monday I dragged myself back to an amazing kick-butt TaeBo class at 5:45pm, then this morning I went and let Jeremy kick my bum with a ridiculous VERT session, and then I joined Jamie for a Hot Yoga class at CPY. What a day. I could seriously be happy as a clam if I could go to a TaeBo or VERT session in the morning, and then hit yoga in the evening, not always hot yoga, but just yoga. It'd be awesome! And of course I was tortured by fantastic Lululemon clothing in the yoga studio... if only it were my job to wear those all day. Maybe being an instructor is my calling. :)

Lately I've really been struggling a bit with depression. I feel sad for Ryan that he has to deal with me in such a stuper. I don't know what it is. I think I'm just dissatisfied with work and then overwhelmed by my to-do list otherwise. Plus, it's really hard to work at a job I don't particularly like from home when surrounded by all the things on my to-do list. By the end of the day I'm just grumpy! Not good. So that's why I'm really trying to work from 7am-4pm and then skidaddle to an evening workout so I can "reboot" between work and home. It's tough. I can tell when I let the two merge and don't get enough "me time". It's bad. So I really need to ensure that I stay focused, that I take some time to myself, and that I figure out a schedule for my life that keeps me motivated and happy, and also that allows me to have a neat and tidy home, because I find that I eat poorly, make bad decisions, lounge more and am more depressed when my house is a mess. So that needs to be a priority.

Anyways, so there you have my state of mind and my goals and wishes... hopefully I can stay on target and stay happy. :)

~Love always~

Links to my favorite workout spots...
www.corepoweryoga.com
www.5280fit.com